So for a time now, it feels like I'm not being heard. It feels like I can scream out loud and no one is gonna hear me. It's a scary feeling and it makes me feel like I am drowning somehow. I sound even crazier written in black and white than it did inside my head. But I'm for real right now. I don't blame anyone at all, it's just that I need someone, just one person I can talk to and that will listen, and without saying it's gonna be fine, think positive and everything will be fine. Because maybe I just need to feel down, maybe it's just that time of year where things aren't suppose to be super great and sunny and all that. I am not super depressed or anything, just a little, but I don't think it can be worked on. I believe that humans need to feel down at times, the sun comes back (Jeez, I wonder how many times I thought that for the last 22 years, it's true though), but someone needs to back off and stop telling me to lighten up, WAKE UP CALL, I don't feel like lightening up, I just need to feel like I don't have to smile to everyone all day long. I need my bestfriend, she understands it, or she pretends to understand it, but honestly I don't care. She makes me feel better, so than I guess she's doing her job correctly, if she was only here, but I understand, i could never ask her to...
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